Tuesday, June 30, 2009

Week 1 Done

I finished my first week and Better U and I think my grade would be...Needs Improvement.

Monday afternoon I had to rush the Kira Kat to the vet with an infection. She had to stay overnight, which freaked out the Nero Gatto and I decided to go home after work to be with him instead of working out. Then I got sick with a summer cold and it's very hard to workout when you are having trouble breathing.

Sunday night was I was laying in bed beating myself up for what a bad week I had had when I realized what I was doing. I tried being honest with myself. And the truth of the matter was that I was only upset about my lack of working out because I feel so fat. If I had gotten sick a year and half ago and had taken the week off, I wouldn't have thought a thing about it. I wouldn't have felt guilty about not working out or berated myself if I was at my ideal weight, or even a good bit closer to it.

So I've let go of last week. Yes I need improvement, but last week was not your normal run of the meal week for me.

Of course neither is this one. The last half of the week is going to be spent traveling for the 4th. Still I went to the gym last night. I'm heading that way in just a few minutes and I will go tomorrow night too. So I'll get in my three gym visits this week. And hopefully I can get some exercise this weekend as well.

Foodwise, I'm doing so-so. I trying to stop eating when full and not eat when I know I'm not hungry, but I'm just bored or wanting that TASTE. I'm hopeful that things will get better. I know I can do this.

Monday, June 22, 2009

Heart Healthy Me

I can't live if I don't have a healthy heart. I've decided to start Go Red For Women's BetterU.

While I've been whining about being too fat lately and how many of my clothes do not fit me anymore. (The later is at least true.) I have not been focusing enough on the fact that I am not in as good of shape as I was a year ago. I need to increase my heart health. And I think this is a great way to do it.

Wednesday, June 17, 2009


I have the afternoon munchies. And it's very annoying.

I wanted some chocolate as soon as I put my lunch leftovers in the fridge. I was full. I didn't want the rest of my sandwich, but I wanted chocolate. So I let myself have kiss. I had a couple more throughout the next hour or so and then gave a presentation.

Shortly after the presentation I wanted more. And all I could think about was the damn vending machine and its alluring Snickers bars. So I had one. That should have quelled the munchies, but it didn't and I found myself staring back at my reflection in the vending machine once again.

Only this time I managed to say to my reflection "This is stupid. You have tasty carrots and hummus in the fridge. Don't they sound good? If they don't you probably aren't hungry." They did sound good and I grabbed them and ate them with delight. I was full, but ate the last three carrots and then suddenly - I found myself contemplating that vending machine again.

I only have an hour and 20 minutes left - surely I can stay away that long. Especially as I am. NOT. HUNGRY. And my cravings really should try and realize that. I'm chugging water like crazy just now.

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

The beginning

I've decided to start a food blog. *Gasp* Because obviously there aren't enough of them in the world. :)

Mostly, after three years of trying to lose weight by fighting food and my body, I'm going to try things a bit differently and I want it to be fun!

I want to think about what I put into my mouth. I want to eat it. I want to enjoy it. I want to live my life happy, healthy and wise. And oh yeah, thin.

I working with the book Intuitive Eating to guide me on this journey. More about me and what I want for and from this blog later. Right now, a messy house calls to me to clean it.